Well, the bill pressure is mounting up again, so I’m looking at the idea of freelancing once more.
I’ve taken stabs at this in the past; I joined a paid freelance writer’s forum for a few months and created a book blurb writing Gig on Fiverr, but I’d always get derailed by the worry that I was starting a sideline I didn’t really care about. Naturally, this happened right at the beginning, before I’d given the sideline a real chance, but fear is rarely rational, and fighting it with words never seemed to work.
Just recently, though, I finally realised how I actually felt when that worry leapt to mind – a very unpleasant, withdrawing kind if feeling – and that I had had it with experiencing that feeling. So I resurrected my Fiverr Gig and created another one for voice work.
But as I watch the mail come in and insurances and other expenses go up, I’m finding myself beset by two more worries which are even more insidious – the worries that:
- I don’t know what I’m doing,
- I’m on my own with this.