I hope you folks will forgive me posting a twelve-year-old comic here; I’m learning my way around ComicPress, a theme I just installed to help me manage the web comics I intend to post here.
Whoa! Thank you for the reminder, Jessica.
On a co-blogger’s recommendation I ventured onto Jessica Lawlor’s web log and found as her current most recent post a review of February. I reckoned I’d better get my bum into gear and keep the momentum going on my own monthly reviews, so (once again) with thanks to Nicole Antoinette and her web log, A Life Less Bullshit, (pack it up, pack it in,) let me begin:
Thinking back over the month of February, and looking ahead to March, I am…
I’m of two minds about XCOM: Enemy Unknown right now.
Firstly: It’s a game that’s really up my street. I can take as much time with it as I want. It’s what some call a “Turn based strategy” game, which means the action is frozen until I make a move.
In fact, that’s a bonus. To play this game well, you need to take your time with it. serioyusly, each and every time I’ve rushed or panicked, the game has kicked my arse soundly, and the worst bit is, I’ve immediately gone, “Oh, what the FUCK did I do that for?!” as the arse kicking commences, because the nature of my error is always apparent. It never feels arbitrary or the result of some designer’s twisted whimsy; I always feel like my failures are the result of my actions.
There’s a lot of fear out there of not knowing enough. Of needing to read more, study more, get things in order in your head before you start pressing on with the actual work of the thing you want to do.
Sometimes, people ask me if I’d go back to uni sometime and study. I always answer: I don’t know. I liked uni, but not for the study (obvious, given I did a year before failing out) – it was more for the community and maybe that aspect of being able to hide from the big world a little longer.
One month down in the new year. How have things been going?
I’d already been intending to write a month-in-review post when Nicole Antoinette’s latest mailing list e-mail with her own one turned up, complete with a template for the rest of us to use. So, with a little cross-promotion for her web log, A Life Less Bullshit (can I say that on TV?), here’s my month in review done to her template:
Thinking back over the month of January, and looking ahead to February, I am…
Learning something new is tough. Not only are you in the midst of acquiring a new set of mental – and at times, also physical – skills, you’re also in the middle of trying to figure out whether this new thing, no matter how shiny, novel and intriguing it may have seemed at first, is really for you.
And when you start out, you’re faced with the reality of how little skill you have. No matter what your opinion of your own skills were, no matter how much a quick study you think you are, no matter whether you already possess attributes and abilities that relate to the new thing – sooner or later, you come to realise that you suck.
At the time, this seems like a slap in the face. Why the hell are you continuing when you’re so crap at it?
Yet if we keep going, it’s these moments, painful as they are, that can actually help us recognise, further down the track, that we have made concrete progress.
I had a moment like it during the eight weeks of boot camp I did last year. That moment was the wheelbarrow.